Why I didn’t write a goodbye post
I’ve been back in America for exactly a month now. However, during the time in July prior to my goodbye in South Africa and until now, I was never inspired to write a blog post about it.
I had reached a point in my service that I was very, very ready. Ready to go, ready to say goodbye, and ready to jump into the next thing.
Simply put, I was ready to jump into my next move because I felt I had done as much as I could at site. I was in a complacent place with my work and knowing that I made a difference. I did what I could do without burning out to an extreme.
I was ready to say goodbye because I couldn’t stay there forever. As much as I loved my host family, I’m not part of their culture and must return to mine at some point.
I was ready to go because I was incredibly sick of being harassed (to a point where some new drunk idiots moved in by my taxi stop and would cat call me in my own village). I had a lot of anger built up inside of me toward the country, specifically because the way men act and how women are treated. Two years was, good god, enough.
I find it rather sad that I left with some of these feelings, because I had an incredible experience and don’t regret it one bit. But, sometimes you’re just ready. My patience grew weaker as time went on, likely because I knew America was around the corner.
The next jump for me will be graduate school at NYU to obtain my MPA. In the future, I hope to start my own nonprofit or be the director of communications of a nonprofit that focuses on public education in the US. (City Year!) I’ve got plenty of years to figure that out, but I’ll still be in the public service sector. I hope to have interesting things to continue to write about — but for now, I’m just a lost puppy wandering around NYC and getting “acquainted”.
Thank you to everyone who followed my post-undergraduate service journey in one way or another! For any City Year or Peace Corps hopefuls, please use my archives as a resource. Always feel free to contact me with any questions about either programs (contact tab above). I encourage you all to serve our country or another, and I’ll keep doing the same!
Three years and out. I’ll be back writin’ soon enough 🙂
Yours in service,